well, yesterday,
had costume fitting at planet.
went to germain's house to give her something.
then we went to meet xiong(: and john at the mrt station.
as usual as i said on the earlier post, i felt strange again,
but wif him there, i felt much more better.
the rest i dun wanna elaborate as it is over le.
today,
early in the morning, went to the stadium.
hmm. had the mass briefing.
at first was okie.
slowly, i was getting a little bored.
then when its time to go,
i know, i kinda isolated myself.
wanna noe why?
cause i just dun seemed to fit into u all.
and i can't be possibly always toking to edwin they all,
there's no other gurrls le.
so i chose to stand alone; i needed be alone so badly!
i need to be alone to think!
okie. the rest, i won't elaborate.
then took 196 to suntec.
then take train to bugis.
then went to have the mango shebert.
hehe, dar treat me!
but i treated him lorrs.
to the tori-Q.
hee.fair.
then walk around awhile then go home.
on the train both of us were tired, we slept.hee. xp
TO YOU ; and maybe some of you ;
well, wat happened?
this friendship is drifting further and further apart.
we used to be toking, laughing and stuffs.
but not now.
everything changed.
u changed, i changed, everyone changed.
now u don't even tok to me.
i really dunno wat u wan.
i didn't tok to u because i didn't noe wat topic to start wif u.
and topics that we have are getting lesser and lesser.
i just don't noe.
so i kept quiet.
i used to feel good toking to u,
but not now.
the feeling is just not the same anymore.
so now, u tok to me, i tok to u.
other than that, i really dun dare to tok to u le.
cause sometimes, u look fierce.
ur expression really does look fierce.
its not that i doesn't wan to go out wif u, or u all.
inside me, i wan to go.
but, i said i didn't wanna go, why?
cause i don't wan to be walking alone anymore.
always, i tried toking to u all, i just don't noe why,
i just can't get into u all.
sometimes u all really have to think of how ppl feels.
and i noe, u all are gossiping bout me.
i don't wan to hear u all gossip bout me in my own ears!
i don't wan.
but, i always hears it, which let me wans to do the same back.
thats why i didn't wanna go.
but in the end, i said ok.
this time is not me.
i said ok and sheng xiong told me dun wan to go le, we go elsewhere.
i didn't force him to go wif me, i did tell him lots of times to follow u all out,
its really not me lahs.
can u all like ask him?
i had quite enough le.
maybe wat u all see is all towards me, negatively.
but u all doesn't noe wats happening behind.
and sometimes, cannot
judge a book by its cover.
i miss the old times, we used to be close, not now anymore,
maybe the problem lies wif both of us.
we are like magnets, when we are close,
we attract to each other closely, there is a strong force in us.
when we aren't close, we repel.
its really hard for me to balance between the two
'ships', relationship and friendship. really really hard to balance.well, both are important to me. i dun wanna lose friends, neither will i wan to lose him. tell me wat to do, anyone? how to balance it very well? i don't wan u all to say i'm sticking to him and now i neglect all of u. i don't wan.i still goes to u all, but now, no one tends to tok to me.
when i'm not close to him, u all say i didn't treat him well.
when i'm close to him, u all say i'm sticking to him, not giving him time being wif u all and oso not treating him well!
oh my god!
wat u all wan?
i do this, u all say that.
i do that, u all say this.
why don't u all stand in my shoes and think.
haiis. i really dunno wat to do.
well, i hope that we could have things talked out, soon, but this time, me and you only.no one else.
i noe u found ur prince, congrats!
zhu ni men yong yuan xin fu kuai le!and if u hear ppl saying thing bout me saying u, i hope that u don't have to listen to them lahs,ask me, i will tell u everything.
PPL; if u read this, don't go around spreading nonsense! or TIAO BO LI JIAN! ask me!this blog is mine, this post is mine! so ask me! and keep ur comments, unless i ASKED! and ur co-operation is highly APPRECIATED! thank you!okie, ruxuan and germain had gone overseas!
TAKE CARE THE BOTH OF U!
bye for now! (=
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