Monday, August 07, 2006 12:54 AM
went to ah gong house today, for lunch. and i was like playing with my baby cousins and video-ing them! some of the video is so funny! hahas. then i was like getting bored already and i picked a small ball up and bounced it on the floor and my brother and i started passing the ball to each other. hahas. so damn funny. then awhile later we went back home. was actually going to meet baobei[germain] up de, but in the end no. so i reach home and around 8 plus, went to GV's burger king for dinner. late dinner. hahas. then went home lorrs. so boring today.
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all of you[purple font]:what i was trying to say is the happy moments that we used to have is all memories, it might come back but there is also a possibility of not coming back. so why not keep all these moments as memories which will always be kept inside my mind? i would rather keep it than forget it. haiis, you've been getting lots of things wrong lately. and i'm getting tired of explaining le. really tired le. first its yuai, then ruxuan and now, its you. i really don't know what to do le. i didn't expect that it would be you. i miss those days. when i treasured you, did you treasure me? even we aren't as close as before already, i've always been treasuring you but you just likes to think negatively that i'm not treasuring you and i treat you like a toy. i guess you aren't the toy but i am. when you all need me, you all comes to me. when you all don't need me, i'm like transparent infront of you all, you all don't even give a damn to me. when i tried to be someone good, i ended up being the one whose at fault! i'm always the one whose at fault when i'm just trying to help! when i don't help, i also at fault! why why WHY?! you all just have to realise it. when i'm all alone, who is there for me? when i've a problem, whose there for me? when i need you all, where are all of you?!!? we might be sitting together, but not talking together. i want back the happy times! is it possible? i guess no bahs.haiis. i don't know what to do le. let nature take its course bahs. FORGIVE AND FORGET?? i can do it, but can you all promise that all this won't happen again?one last thing to you girl, you once told me that you understand that its hard to balance between the 'two ships' remember? i really hope that they will understand as much as you do when you told me that you understand. i don't know when i will talk to you, so, best wishes to you and him. i seriously hope things will get better. maybe some of you might loathe me, but i guess there is no choice.and readers!, don't go around commenting yepp?! and DON'T YOU DARE TO TIAO BO LI JIAN! come personally to me! i own this blog! i post this post! so i'm the one whom you should be asking and others! thanks for your co-operation!i miss you darlinG! you are old already, hahs.
