lots of things running through my mind now, what's exactly wrong with me? i'm feeling so miserable, i just can't take it. tell me, mid-years is here, my stress is piling up and workload is getting more and more, everything! sometimes i just want to end it just here. ):
i'm sorry, i didn't realise i made you think like that, which that isn't what i wanted you to think like. i am so useless, i am so hopeless, sorries. i didn't know all that. i don't know what did i do to deserve all this, i really don't. i have nothing to do with him already, really have nothing! ): i woke up and burst into tears, &the worst is here, the love i'm carrying for you is not a 'can-put-down-easily' thing. i just cannot stop thinking! i just can't.)':
it hurts, it really does.everything! i realise that i can't do without you! )':
the tears are drying up, the smile is fading away, the path is getting quiet, dark and i'm going to be all alone. you once said you are going to brighten it up, and now, its from a colourful happy world into nothing! a total black and white indeed...
yesyesyes,
i'm unreasonable, i'm selfish.
friends and the 3 girls;
i'm no longer me rights? no longer that nicolette already, maybe you guys can don't care about me anymore because i'm just a fucking useless girl, who feels so useless and hopeless in whatever she does. she has no confidence. don't bother wasting your time on me already. being with me is no good, i don't bring happiness to anyone, everyone thats with me is always so unhappy, i don't want it. i can't be a good girlfriend, i can't be a good friend either i guess.i apologies for eveything i did wrongly. listen to me this last time and i'm happy enough, i may seem to be not appreciating things that you all did, but i just want to say, i may seem that way, but actually, i'm not. i just hope nicolette leaves a good impression in you guys. you're all awesome friends and i'm happy enough to have all of you..
here's something i want to say, we've been through thicks and thins together, and i'm glad that we're together over and over again. you guys have never gave me up, but..... i'm really grateful to you people, for always helping me out, making me happy...
don't worry about me, i'm fine.
to people who is unappreciative, remember this, this is my blog and don't bother about people's business. i welcome you, but keep your mouth shut.
{I HAVE NO RIGHT; I HAVE NO SAY AND I LONGED TO BE GONE ONE DAY}
