happy racial harmony day people! (:
i didn't attend school today. half of the reason is because i'm late. and today was alright as its almost all free period. attending detention would be so waste of time then, going to school, didn't learn anything but going for detention because of the few minutes late. -.-
what's happening? what's wrong?
i don't feel good, i don't feel me, myself. i'm not on the right track, i know. =/
i'm not what i used to be. and i'm not going to be what i am now. the feeling sucked being the now 'me'. to be truthful, i don't feel happiness in school. school, a place where i used to look forward to going every morning, a place where i had lots and lots of fun with the people. but now, tell me what's going to school for? besides studying? if there isn't a happy environment, no matter how well i study, and even if an 'A' was scored, i'll not be happy, i'll not be satisfied with the results i get. because its expected to be more than an 'A' , something that you'll not see on the result slip, something that you'll feel inside your heart. (:
its a very complicated feeling i have here, i'm feeeling vexed/disappointed/unhappy/inferior. =/
but, after some thoughts, i think it'll be fine sometime later? maybe just don't provoke me? giving attitudes is not going to be my style. (: and if you really do get back attitude, think of what you previously did, if you don't know, find out from me perhaps, i will not hesitate to tell you the truth. and we shall solve it, if not, you'll grow to dislike me. there's a reason for everything i do. (;
EOY is getting nearer. everyone's starting to mug. and we'll be busy with studying and stuffs, expected. but people, keep the fun going.. don't lose grip of it. or else, there's no fun at all. (:
the stress thats clinging onto me now, i hate. >.< & i realised something after many many many days of long long long sudden reflects, its actually someone that made things worst when things can be solved easily. and that
'hatred kind of feeling' for her was not even there in the first place when people always told me that i of course must hate her or something. -.- its just a dislike i have after all this while because after all, things have come till this far, 'nan mian'(i just don't know what's this in english) also will have this kind of feeling grown..i think its likewise for her too.. so i don't deny. (:
wait, i'm not finished. but i'm really tired, its 1.45a.m. already. i need to go for my sleep.
and i know its a long post, its wordy too! and what i've said now, its all on how i'm really feeling. actually, please believe in yourself and not what others says. i'll update more tomorrow. (:
NOW, THE SPAMMER,hellooo? thanks for your tags that made the tagboard look like its more livelier? but it doesn't look like it is because you're one person tagging with different names? and hey, look here, open up your eyes and see, I HAVE NO BOYFRIEND OKAY! and don't use MY NAME AND MY FRIENDS NAME TO TAG KAYS! you think what? 'zhi bian, zhi dao, zhi yan arrs?' and you come here and find trouble, something go hay-wired up in your mind? then this isn't a place for you, go to IMH's website instead.(: everyday come here and spam, not sian? lols. FUCK OFF! (:p.s. that nicolette and GERMAIN in the tagboard isn't the real us. (:
